Week 33 – To pee or not to pee…

…That is no longer the question because the answer is ALWAYS to pee these days! I struck a new personal best (worst) a few nights ago where I got up during the night to pee FIVE TIMES! Let’s just say that was not a good night for sleeping.

I feel like the total cliche third trimester pregnant woman with this peeing.  I always thought it’s an exaggeration, but the increase in the need to pee practically came overnight.  I have tried to fight it so I don’t have to keep getting up but all this results in is me being awake and still feeling like I need to pee.  Better just to get up and get it over with.

I’ve also noticed recently that the pregnancy apps have gotten really boring. It’s like as though all the exciting stuff has already happened and essentially all they can talk about now is labour (not relevant to me), breastfeeding (obviously not to be dismissed, but how many times can you read about the importance of breastfeeding), and what to pack in your hospital bag. Zzzzzzz!

Overall this week has been pretty unremarkable pregnancy wise, however a new heatwave has hit town which means that I need to take care to not get too hot and to keep hydrated. Meanwhile it’s hard enough to maintain energy levels at this stage of pregnancy without the temperature hitting or exceeding 38 degrees (100F). This also severely limits my exercising as not only is the heat draining but it’s practically impossible to do anything that is not water-based.

I have skipped a trip to the beach today even as I thought it would be too much for me.  Tomorrow though looks like it might work out okay, albeit I think we might need to go early and come home if it gets too roasting out there.

Weight gain: I’ve seen a small gain this week and I’m up a total of 13kg (28 pounds) overall, which is not so bad.  My target had originally been 12-15kg and I think I’m more likely to hit 18kg given I have 5-6 weeks of pregnancy left (baby is coming out at 38-39 weeks). Who knows though as it’s too hot to eat a lot here anyway so that’s probably working in my favour.  The doctor estimated the baby is weighing in at 2.2kg (nearly 5 pounds) at the moment (he’s long/tall) so there’s a chance he will grow by at least 1kg before he arrives.

Symptoms: Peeing every 20 mins, breathlessness from doing practically nothing, dizziness (when I’ve not eaten regularly enough), generally tired and over-hot.  I actually don’t think any of these symptoms are that bad and I am not hugely impacted by any of them.  Sure I’ve slowed down a bunch but I’ve not really stopped doing anything, except perhaps walking outdoors as it’s impossible in this heat without going all dizzy. I’ve not been too affected by contractions this week and I think this is because I’ve been taking it a bit easier generally (shocking for me, I know).

Eating: Nothing interesting to report here.  Watermelon season has started to kick off and so hubby has been preparing me a lot of it which is lovely and refreshing. I ate a whole bunch of crisps (potato chips) last weekend and they were amazing, but I don’t think I have been particularly naughty otherwise.

Sleep: Ohhhh my old friend sleep! How I miss those days of actually being able to sleep for longer than 3 hours at a time!  How it usually goes on most weeknights is that I head to bed around 10.30pm or 11.00pm and have a lovely 3-4 hours of proper sleep.  Then I wake up to pee and from that point onwards I kind of cat-nap/lightly sleep in periods of 1.5 hours.  I regularly wake up feeling like I have not been to bed at all.  I cannot say I enjoy this aspect of pregnancy.

I also had a new business pitch during the week which I was leading so I had to drive a round trip of about 3 hours and give a two hour pitch presentation in the middle. I thought I’d be totally fine and I was, but on the way home in the car I was sooooo incredibly sleepy that I literally smacked my cheeks a few times to perk myself up.  I came home instead of returning to the office (it was mid-afternoon by the time I got back anyway) and managed to make it to 5pm before I unintentionally passed out on the sofa. The combination of this meeting and the driving clearly took a lot out of me than I had expected!

As a side note, in this meeting the (potential) client did not even offer me a glass of water for the entire duration of the meeting.  Let me remind you that a) offering a drink to a guest is generally considered polite, b) it’s really hot here and c) I am clearly VERY pregnant!  I continue to be appalled about this.  I could have asked, but I didn’t as they had already seemed a bit funny about my request to use the ladies room before I started my presentation (seriously, I had to go).

Movement: Yes, still being a ninja! I’ve started to notice that if I haven’t eaten for a while he gets a bit more aggressive.  It used to be that he’d move around a bunch after eating something, especially something sweet (which he still does) but I’ve noticed the new trend to remind me to eat.  Pregnancy never stops being a combination of amazing and weird!

Emotions: I think tired should be considered an emotion.  Because if I’m not tired my emotions are pretty stable.  If I am not well-slept then watch out as I can be a Cranky Monster!  I’ve had a really tough week at work so read into that as you choose…

Missing: My waistline.  Going to the beach and seeing all these fabulous bodies in cute bikinis is a bit depressing.  Saying that, when I was at the beach last year in my cute bikini and I saw pregnant women I hated them so clearly I am just overly dramatic.

A couple of times at work this week when I was struggling I said to myself that if I wasn’t pregnant I would have been drinking wine at my desk, so I’m also adding wine to the list this week.  You know summer and wine just go together so beautifully too and no matter how many pieces of fruit and mini-umbrellas you put into my sparkling water it is STILL not a proper cocktail!

Purchases: Nothing, but I did receive a few lovely things in the post from my Mum.  As she’s in the southern hemisphere she was able to pick up some nice things in end of summer sales.  I think she’s clearly enjoying all this new baby shopping!

Looking forward to: MY BABY SHOWER!!  Yes, you read that right!  After all my moaning that I wouldn’t get to have a baby shower because none of my close friends or family are here, hubby decided that I needed to have one (a small one) anyway and he has set out to make sure I have one.  Honestly, I didn’t think I wanted a baby shower but the fact he’s gone out of his way to make me able to have one is just the most beautiful thing ever and I love him for it.

I know the husband is not meant to throw the baby shower, but sometimes we need to be a bit unconventional.  So he’s invited a bunch of friends and a few of his nice, female cousins and it will be hosted at his parents house – they have a huge garden and pool so it will be perfect for an early evening gathering.  He’s even hiring a party planner so it looks pretty and we have catering and whatnot.  The party planner is the same lady that organised our wedding here (we had a wedding in both locations – this is the best way to get around being from different countries/hemispheres) and she’s great! Also, it may be that hubby’s American aunt will be in town (and uncle but obvs men are banned) and I think she might have some great ideas to contribute (in my head, Americans are the queens of baby showers).  So I’m very happy!

Best moment: The highlight this week was probably when hubby told me about the baby shower because it was such a beautiful gesture and I had a little cry. Otherwise, seeing the small guy on the scan this week and finding out he is growing beautifully.  Also, getting a date for our c-section is very exciting and making me freak out a little bit.

Exercise: Pffffffttttt!  It’s too hot! Monday was a holiday here and we were at the beach so I guess going swimming there technically counts.  I did go swimming in my (free) pool again on Tuesday night and it was beautiful!  Wednesday night was when I passed out on the sofa after the big meeting described above.  Thursday was hubby’s birthday so I stayed home and chilled with him (if he’d gone to the gym I think I might have gone to the pool again) and Friday night I came home really late from work as I was so busy and then I had a dinner to go to for hubby’s birthday so there was no time.  So I have excuses.  Maybe next week will be better.

Bump update: Bump is getting BIG!  I’m now at the stage where people ask is he coming soon which is new.  It used to be when are you due?  Clearly I’ve graduated to a new level of large.  I’ve also found now that people want to carry my stuff all the time which is great.  The guy at the supermarket today not only packed my trolley after I’d paid for it, but also wheeled the trolley to my car and packed the groceries in my boot.  Suddenly pregnancy is not so bad!  Haha!

Also, my boss told me yesterday that my pregnancy fashion has been really great and flattering (not that you’d know as I only post underwear photos here).  In a brilliantly bitchy side-note she also said my other colleague who is pregnant looks quite frumpy in comparison.  Of course this was super-mean to her but a massive compliment to me so I decided to focus on the positive. 🙂

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Shiny, shiny bump!

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My inny is on the verge of being an outy! 

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Bump view: Bye toes! See you next month! 

 

 

Grow baby, grow!

We had a little scheduling change this week bringing forward my next doctor’s appointment to today. There was nothing dramatic about this, just that the original appointment time was not so convenient for my hubby.  In any case I was delighted as it meant not having to wait so long to see the small dude again!

Except he’s not that much of a small dude anymore with the doctor saying he is measuring long.  He also estimated the current weight at 2.2kg but explained because the baby is long that doesn’t mean he’s oversize for his development stage. We are both delighted as we are hoping this means he will grow up to be tall, but of course who really knows!

Otherwise the scan was pretty unremarkable.  The umbilical cord was in front of his face so the 3D pictures didn’t really show much other than one eye. I asked the doctor if our baby is cute and he laughed while saying “Of course!”. As if there is any other response! See for yourself here.

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Definitely cute, right? 

We also finally confirmed the date of the scheduled c-section and I am so happy as it was the date we wanted all along.  I’m not going to specify it here as I’m generally keeping it a secret, suffice to say it’s between week 38 and 39. Our next appointment with the doctor will be in three weeks time and I felt a bit emotional when he said it will probably be our last appointment before delivering the baby.

I suddenly realised WE ARE GOING TO HAVE A BABY!!  This is kind of unbelievable, despite my growing belly. Like wow!

I also requested the whooping cough vaccination, which was interesting because the doctor didn’t offer it to me, I had to ask for it.  In any case he was really supportive of having it and made my hubby have it too.  I might have been a little too happy and excited about hubby also getting to suffer for once. Saying that, it wasn’t even painful (I was almost disappointed)! In any case, for those of you who are thinking what whooping cough vaccination, read more here:
http://www.nhs.uk/conditions/pregnancy-and-baby/pages/whooping-cough-vaccination-pregnant.aspx

I also got my second jab for the RH negative blood.  The last time I had this done hubby wasn’t there, but this time I had an audience.  It is a jab that’s given to your butt (nice) and so as I turned around and hitched up my knickers on one side to flash a cheek, hubby helpfully commented “Now that’s a fine ass!”. The midwife administering the jab was very diplomatic and said nothing, just focused on the job she had to do. He is very naughty! Haha!

This week has been otherwise pretty unremarkable.  I’m a bit tired and slow to move, especially in the super-hot weather, but I’m otherwise doing really well.  The contractions keep coming, especially in the evenings but they are clearly just practice contractions (at this stage anyway) and not really stressing me out too much. Long may it stay that way!

 

 

Week 30 – When stuff starts to get real!

Well helllooooo to the big 3-0! This is officially the week where you start thinking to yourself WTF! I’m actually going to be having a baby soon! 

A sense of restlessness has kicked in over the past few days and it makes me feel like I need to get stuff done – what stuff, I’m not entirely sure, but it needs to get done! Today we finally, FINALLY started work on the baby room.  And despite me going on and on about how my husband was procrastinating about this, when we actually started today by dismantling the bed and taking down the pictures ahead of painting I had a full emotional breakdown.

Tears.

It has less to do with the room turning into a baby room and more to the fact that this was the only room in our place that was – until now – all mine.  He owned this place before we moved here and so the design and furnishings were mainly his (and his mum’s) taste and style.  This was the room that I was given carte blanche to decorate and furnish how I wanted to.  Now of course I’ve been around long enough these days that all the rooms now have my touch on them, but still the remnants of the emotion haven’t gone away.  I’m sure I’ll be fine though once the baby room is all decorated and lovely.

Now that we have effectively gutted the room of furniture, we will get it painted next week before having some wallpaper (cute pale blue whales design) installed on one wall.  The other wall will most likely have some shelving on it so that we can add some special items here and there. Hubby was this week given a model Lamborghini car from a friend and so I think this will be the feature item on the so far hypothetical shelf.

For several hours today we went around different showrooms looking at rugs for the baby room and I think we settled on a cream one that we like.  The cot bed and drawers will arrive sometime around the first week of June so hopefully by mid-June we will be all set and ready for a baby!  That gives us a month to get the rest of our lives ready for the baby, subject to no early appearances or any other surprises!

Other than that, week 30 has involved being struck quite hard with tiredness and dizziness. I am sure this has something with the advanced stage of the pregnancy but also with the heat. The past few days we’ve had a bit of a break in the hot spell and I’ve felt more energetic as a result. So for those of you out there in cooler climes, trust me it’s better than being so freaking hot that you become a bit useless!

Weight gain: This week has been a growing week! I didn’t even need to weigh myself to know this, I am just feeling myself being bigger. But of course I did weigh myself and I gained about 1kg this week, taking me to 12kg up overall. It’s so weird how I can gain nothing in one week and then a full kilogram the next. I’m still doing okay with it though as I get regularly told that I am looking good. Someone even asked me where I was going on summer holidays this year not realising that the baby was due in July. Maybe they were just a bit clueless about belly sizes, but I took it to mean that I don’t look especially large for the stage of pregnancy I’m in.

Symptoms: FATIGUE! Oh boy I’ve been tired this week! I think this is just the way it’s going to be from now on, especially with the weather getting hotter. Most of the time I go about my day unbothered by pregnancy (if I’m not too hot), but I went for a walk the other night with hubby and I suffered such pain and discomfort it was a bit worrying. The walk was gentle, in the park like always, but my entire belly went rock hard and I had lower back pains. Braxton Hicks? Maybe. In any case I had to sit down halfway through the walk as I was in such pain. Even then I struggled to finish and I would not describe the walk as enjoyable. I felt more like I survived it. I wasn’t out of breath so it was not a fitness issue. When I got home I had a bit of a sit down and then dinner and felt perfectly fine afterwards so it’s all a mystery.

Today when we were out and about looking at rugs I also had a period where I was especially breathless even though I was not really exerting myself at all. I think I might have been a bit hot, but it was overall very strange.

Interestingly, my heartburn has completely eased off and I am so happy! I know it could make a return at anytime so I hope I haven’t jinxed myself here.

Eating: Fatigue has played a funny role in my appetite this week and I have not been very interested in eating dinner. I think it’s also the weather, but I’m most hungry first thing in the morning so I eat a fairly big breakfast and take it from there. I make sure to get a few fruits in each day and loads of fresh salad and vegetables. I am still not hugely into meat, but I am forcing myself to eat it for protein purposes. And I still finish my day off most nights with a glass of milk in bed. It always tastes nicer when hubby brings it to me like my man servant! Hahaha!

Sleep: There are officially not enough hours in the day to get enough sleep and still hold down a full time job. It’s a fact. This is not helped by the fact that I’ve hit that stage where I don’t sleep very deeply and don’t really know why. I don’t feel troubled by my size or belly, and while I do pee twice a night usually these days I don’t think that’s the issue. I can’t see it getting better before this baby comes and almost certainly not afterwards so I’ve decided not to focus on it too much. I had a good sleep last night though which makes me think that I am just going to have to hold on until my maternity leave kicks in at the end of June.

Movement: Oh my goodness, yes! The word “movement” doesn’t adequately describe what is going on inside my belly most days. I’ve taken some videos of my stomach lurching from side-to-side for various family members and even those who have had babies seem shocked by how much of a mover the small dude is. It seems he doesn’t throw his belly parties at night though – mainly during the day and in the evening so I am hoping this is reflected in his sleep habits when he comes out too.

Emotions: Apart from my tears today I have been pretty calm and serene.  I don’t seem to be particularly badly struck by the raging hormones making me cranky.

Missing: Just generally being able to do stuff independently. I don’t like having to ask people to do heavy or difficult jobs all the time. And I also miss being able to go for a walk or about town without every last person staring at me.

Purchases: Nothing! We did go to an educational seminar last Sunday run by our clinic that also had a bunch of baby suppliers in attendance like a mini-expo event. The brilliant thing about this was that baby brands like to give freebies. Lots of freebies! It was a bit like going into a gifting room with everything from bottles, pacifiers, different baby and maternity creams and even baby food given to us. I noticed that hubby must have had the midnight munchies the other night as he ate one of the sachets of baby food (those kind of wheat ones you add water or milk to). I guess that’s a good way to know what you’re feeding your child!

Looking forward to: Our appointment with the paediatrician. I have somehow managed to snaffle us one of the most popular paediatrician’s in the country, even though she’s not taking new patients. The appointment is not for another week but still I’m excited to meet her to talk about how I can manage to do skin-to-skin despite the planned c-section. This paediatrician is very pro-breast-feeding, pro-skin-to-skin and modern so I think she is going to be such a great person to have on our team.

Best moment of the week: When we were at the seminar last week, hubby was going about the booths at the event with me and I saw him pick up a sample of what I knew was vaginal cream, but he did not. Oh it was brilliant! He then asked the people there what it was for and his face as they explained was PRICELESS! He put that cream back in the basket it came from lightening fast and I nearly peed myself laughing at him!

Exercise: There has been more yoga than walking this week but that’s because it’s been too damned hot to do outdoor exercise. I did have a wonderful swim in the sea on Sunday which felt amazing! Hopefully I’ll shift that butt (and belly) of mine some more this week!

Bump update: The further along in my pregnancy the more I cannot believe that there are people out there who have no idea they are pregnant until they give birth.  Where are they putting these babies!!  There is NO WAY anyone can mistake that I am pregnant these days!

Side note: Say goodbye to the bed in these pictures as this is the baby room and I took these photos last night so the bed is no longer there!  But see below for a bonus bump view option this week with my cheeky kitty…

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The innie (belly button) is getting closer by the day to being an outie!

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I am fully front-loaded with the bubba! 

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Bump view – I can still see my toes (and put on shoes unassisted)!! 

 

 

Antithrombin III deficiency and pregnancy

This post is a bit of an educational one and is perhaps more relevant to the infertility warriors out there than the pregnant mammas.  But keep reading pregnant mammas as maybe you’ll learn something hear that one of your friends might find interesting.

As part of my investigations into possible causes of my multiple miscarriages, I was tested for something called Antithrombin III deficiency.  The results showed that I did in fact have a mild deficiency which, put very simply, means I am more prone to thrombosis or blood clots than the average person.

It is good to be aware of if for no other reason that if ever I am having a major surgery I can let my medical practitioners know to take extra precautions to prevent blood clots forming.

What makes it a particularly big deal for me is that it may have been a contributing factor in my infertility and multiple miscarriages.  It is also a big concern when you are pregnant as a blood clot is generally considered a bad thing for both mother and baby.

I am really happy that I went and saw a haematologist separately to my IVF doctor as haematologists are more specialised in this and I found my IVF doctor was and still is sceptical as to the relevance of antithrombin III deficiency.

The treatment that I have been given to offset the risk of thrombosis has been a daily, self-administered injection of a blood thinning product, in my case it is Clexane.  Many IVF doctors do give a low dose of Clexane as part of the embryo transfer process (you usually start a daily dose a couple of days after your transfer), but in my case I needed a higher dose in order to combat my deficiency.

So yes, I have been jabbing myself every single day with a blood thinner since mid-November last year and I will continue up until the birth and then for six weeks afterwards!  Let’s just say that with the IVF injections and now the Clexane, I am not at all squeamish about giving myself injections anymore.  In fact, I am incredibly efficient about it – it probably takes me less than 2 minutes and that includes unwrapping the injection from it’s packaging.  I am a pro at injections these days!

At about six weeks pregnant my haematologist checked my antithrombin III levels again and found that the dosage of Clexane was sufficient at the time, but she did caution me to come back to be tested again once I’d gained some weight with the pregnancy.  Weight gain and increased blood volume can impact the effectiveness of the dosage.  So back I went to be tested a week ago and I was freaked out to learn on Friday that I need to almost double my dosage of Clexane as I am back into the risky zone for thrombosis.  Eeeeek!

Actually I expected to have my dosage increased as I had noticed I stopped bruising so very easily which I did at the start of my pregnancy.  It was a sign that my blood was not so thin anymore.  I don’t know why, but I felt kind of sad for 24 hours after hearing I had to up my dose.  I think I’d gotten to the point where I felt like all my struggles to conceive and failure to be a “real woman” had started to melt away and this was just a reminder that this pregnancy is a miracle of science as much as anything.

But really it’s fine.  It’s important I do everything in my power to keep baby and me healthy.  So what if my dosage is increased? So what if I have a couple of bruises here and there? This will all be forgotten in the sands of time.

Moral of this story though is that if you too have had multiple miscarriages, especially missed miscarriages like I did, then I suggest you go and also have your antithrombin III levels tested.  It’s a very specialised test and so regular blood clinics might not do it.  It’s also expensive, but it’s probably some of the best money I’ve spent during this whole process.

 

 

Week 29

After all the fun and games of Thursday’s glucose tolerance test apparently all is fine. The clinic phoned me today with the results and I was all set to tell them there was no way I was repeating the test unless there was some actual evidence that I may have gestational diabetes, however my tough girl stance was not needed. I didn’t request the actual test results so I don’t know if I really did pass the test properly or just my doctor didn’t want me to come back to do it again and puke in his consultancy rooms for a second time. Either way, I’m not doing it again.

I ended up emailing my doctor on Thursday night to apologise for the drama and he said that I might have been sick because of low blood pressure. What?! No, I think I was sick because you made me drink the most disgustingly strong glucose drink on an empty stomach, then you poked my belly with an ultrasound! Maybe THAT had a bit more to do with the vomiting!

Anyhoo, I did ask him to confirm the weight of the baby – I swear he told me at the time the baby weighed around 1.3kg but I was about to puke at the time so who knows – but the doctor couldn’t remember anymore and neither can hubby. The doctor did confirm though that the baby is long. One of the last measurements he managed to take before they ushered me out to the ward was of the baby’s thigh bone so I guess that’s how he can work out length/height. I was a long baby and I’m pretty tall and hubby is also fairly tall too so we are hoping that our baby is not a shorty like my sister and hubby’s brother. We joke that it would be unfortunate if the baby ends up being a combination of my sister and his brother. Hahaha! Obviously neither of our siblings are aware of this joke as I don’t think they’d find it as funny as we do.

I am still annoyed that my appointment time was cut severely short  by the vomiting so I feel as though I didn’t get to really chat through the things I had planned to. I mean, I don’t really have any questions but it was all so rushed and brief that I feel a bit short changed.

My next appointment with the doctor is in a month’s time which seems to be in conflict with what all of the pregnancy apps say is the norm for the third trimester. They all say it will be fortnightly appointments from now. It’s not actually a big deal for me though as the clinic is five minutes from my house and so if I am ever concerned I can just pop in there and be monitored by the midwives and the doctor would see me if it was something properly concerning.

Weight gain: This has been another week of minimal weight gain – less than half a kilogram. Overall, I’ve gained a little under 11kg (24 pounds) and I’m actually okay with it. Even my Ovia app gave me an ovation today for maintaining a healthy weight which is nice of it. Something has changed in my mindset the past few weeks as the bump has grown but the rest of me has stayed more or less the same. I think I was always fearful that I would gain weight all over my body, but so far that hasn’t happened. I am now embracing the bump and even wearing tight clothes! I should probably caveat that by saying practically everything I wear is a bit tight. This is sometimes by design (maternity wear) but often not. Haha!

Symptoms: I had another calf cramp on Tuesday night but I was ready for it this time and hubby even managed to help me out by stretching it. This was at 5am and when I thanked him for his help the next day he had zero memory of it. What this shows to me is that he’s so used to me and my weird night-time happenings now that he doesn’t even wake up anymore.

Apart from the awful glucose tolerance test and vomiting episode, I’ve not had a lot of symptoms this week. Perhaps I’ve been a bit more tired than previous weeks but that was mainly on Wednesday as I stayed up too late watching the semi-final of Eurovision on Tuesday night. Seriously, I love Eurovision and so the tiredness was worth it. I prepared myself better for Thursday night’s second semi-final so I was not quite as exhausted today.

Anyway, symptoms… I asked the doctor (pre-vomiting episode) about the probable cause for my dizzy spells and he said it’s most likely to do with low blood pressure. My blood pressure on Thursday was 113/71 but I think it occasionally drops lower when I get very hot and/or very tired. So essentially I should stay cool, well-hydrated, well-rested and eat well throughout the day without big gaps of time between snacks. I have felt a lot better at work this week because the weather has gotten a bit hotter and this means my colleagues have been very keen to turn the AC on at work. This makes me so much more comfortable and energised at work!

Eating: A couple of nights this week hubby came home unexpectedly late from work and by the time he arrived I was completely over everything about dinner. This has led to very light dinners (overgrown snacks actually) which seem to have done me no harm. However, I did have a good hearty meal of steak (cooked well done) and salad with quinoa on Thursday night and that was particularly good after all the glucose test dramas earlier in the day. Maybe it turned out my body really wanted some actual food after that!

Sleep: I want naps!! Someone design me a work day where it’s acceptable to take naps!

Movement: Baby has really stepped up the movements this week and his kicks can be really violent now! I get some movements that are so strong my whole bump visibly moves. I have named these “belly quakes” as they are like an earthquake in my belly. It’s good that he’s moving though as I know he’s growing and getting stronger.

Emotions: I’ve been much better emotionally this week. Some of the issues that were bringing me down last week with work and conflict over the baby room have been resolved or improved in some way. Work was busy this week but not like the previous two weeks thankfully.

Missing: Nothing really. I’m all good this week.

Purchases: I think hubby might have finally placed an order for the Mamaroo. We have been mulling over this purchase for some time and I am being swayed by the fact that everyone I know who has one raves about it. Hubby also loves gadgets so this appeals to him. Let’s hope our ninja baby loves it too!

Looking forward to: Hubby finally starting work on the baby room. The first step is to dismantle the guest bed we have in there and put it in our store room. He’s giving the mattress to his parents so this might even happen this weekend. Then we will get it repainted and wallpapered. The baby furniture is delivered in the first week of June so we better get moving!

Best moment of the week: The 30 seconds I saw the our small ninja on the ultrasound scan before taking ill. He’s looking pretty cute here and seems to have hubby’s lovely lips but who knows as ultrasounds are not exactly great at picking up on these things.

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Exercise: Yoga is getting funny now as it’s not so easy with a 10kg bump in the way, however I am not giving in yet!! Walking has been good though and I feel strong. I get a bit slow on the hill on the way home but other than that I actually overtook some people in the park the other day. Yay me!

Bump update: It really is just a big round bump up front with very little extra junk in my trunk! The bigger my bump gets, the more reasonably-sized my giant boobs look too.

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Week 28 – Third trimester hot mamma!

Helllooooo third trimester! If I’m honest, I had gotten to the point in the IVF road last last year and I really thought I’d never be pregnant or have a baby ever so hitting the third trimester is even more exciting and incredible than I could ever have imagined. I’ve looked back at old posts and this time a year ago I had just gotten the news that my second pregnancy was also not viable. So that was two missed miscarriages within about 5 months. I think I actually got worse mentally after that before I got better, but overall it was an epically awful time.

Yet here I am a year later – and seriously, it feels like just yesterday all that happened – and there is an actual, live, kicking baby inside of me. For so long I wondered if IVF was just a big scam, but then it worked. IT ACTUALLY WORKED!! For any of the IVF warriors who are reading this and are questioning the whole journey (god knows I was) then I hope this gives you some kind of inspiration to keep going.

Even after all the trials of getting pregnant and IVF, it’s almost comforting to know that you can still have disagreements over a lot of baby decisions! Hubby and I have been in a battle for some time now over the name of the baby, our son (wow, it still feels weird to write “son”). We ended up each asking one close friend for their opinions without the friends knowing which name we each favoured. Just my luck though that both friends went with hubby’s choice. I think I have officially lost the battle. In good news, the baby now has a name and hubby says I get to choose the name if we have another baby and it’s a girl (I assume if we have another boy the battle will recommence). This does feel like an empty victory for me, haha!

During the whole naming process I have had some regrets about my past though. It’s very hard to choose a baby name if the names you like are those of ex-lovers. I would give some advice to my 20-something self to only date men with names I don’t really like as I have had to rule out several names based solely on the fact that I had longish and memorable relationships with them. Not something you’re thinking about when you’re getting hot and heavy with someone new when you’re 20-something!!

On to this week’s summary…

Weight gain: Minimal this week! Phew! I continue to feel like I’ve gained a lot of weight though. When I’m on my feet for any length of time I feel the extra 10kg in my feet. When hubby makes fun of me needing a rest or a sit down, joking that he doesn’t believe I ever ran marathons (I damn well ran 6 of them!!) I want to strap 5kg ankle weights to each of his ankles! I probably would if he wasn’t still recovering from his knee surgery. Just so he shuts up!

Symptoms: See my previous post for a more detailed summary, but occasional dizziness continues, as does generally feeling sluggish and being out of breath. Sometimes baby sits really high up right under my rib cage and I kind of have to wiggle into a strange position to feel like I can breathe properly. It’s more of an irritation than anything. Most of the time I feel pretty fine, if a bit slower than usual.

Eating: I continue to more or less eat the same but I think I am a bit more hungry in general these days. I try and eat every few hours as I can get a bit dizzy and bad tempered if I don’t. However, I really don’t seem to be struck by crazy cravings like you hear about. There are no pickled onions with peanut butter for me. I almost feel disappointed in myself that I don’t have to send hubby out at 2am for some kind of chocolate chip ice-cream and salsa concoction. Also because it’s hot I think this affects what I want to eat. Maybe if it was winter I’d want to eat all the carbs in the universe at this point of the pregnancy.

Sleep: What’s normal at 28 weeks of pregnancy for sleep? I wake up at least once a night to pee and sometimes twice a night. I’m so well-practiced at it now though that I’m barely awake when I’m doing it. I continue to sleep better in the first half of the night so I just try and get a good 4-5 hours in before I move to the restless-half-awake kind of sleep that seems to happen in the last few hours before getting up. I do go to bed earlier than I used to pre-pregnancy and hubby – who is a bone fide night owl – seems also to be coming to bed earlier as a result. He usually spends an hour or so doing his own thing after I go to bed before he joins me and since I now go to bed earlier, so does he! This has also started to mean he gets up earlier. I swear my hormones are getting to him!

Movement: The baby has moved on from being a ninja to now being a velociraptor. They’re the small but really aggressive dinosaurs from Jurassic Park. I’m not trying to suggest he is a mean baby, but rather his movements are STRONG these days. Sometimes they even startle me or make me wince. I thought this happened later on in pregnancy so I’m starting to wonder what the kicks and punches are going to feel like closer to the end. Sometimes he gets so active that my whole belly is jolting. It is funny, but it is so, so weird!

Emotions: This past week has not been great for me. I’ve been emotionally drained and feeling really down. Hubby and I had a ridiculous and upsetting conversation on Thursday night about what to do about the room which is due to the baby room / nursery. The details of our conversation are so boring, but I was overly sensitive to everything he was saying and just sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. Even by Friday – my day off work – I didn’t feel better (the discussion was not resolved you see). It was the worst day I’ve had in a long time, but I think a lot of it was rooted in tiredness.

It’s been a tough week at work and it’s been hot weather too which has contributed to how tired I feel. I think it’s the time of year where companies are trying to get a lot of stuff done before the summer break, but also I think both my boss and my clients are freaking out a bit about me going on maternity leave at the end of June and so are trying to front load my schedule. Lucky me!

In good news I’m doing better today and I am so grateful to be carrying this lovely baby inside of me.

Missing: This is not a new one, but I am really freaking out about how tiny my support network is around me. I am a very capable, independent person, hubby is awesome (he really is, despite what I occasionally write here) and his parents are kind and generous, so I’m sure everything will be fine. But his brother and wife annoy me which makes family gatherings not relaxing for me. My family is so far away and they’re not very proactive with support at the best of times so I just get sad about this stuff occasionally. I don’t see anything changing with any of this so I just need to get over it really.

Purchases:  I got online again and bought a pair of shorts, a swimsuit and some new summer sandals. Yay! Do you know I really only look nice in blue and grey shades at the moment.  Pretty much all of my maternity clothes are in shades of blue, grey and white.

We also collected the stroller today (which is grey) but we asked them not to build it yet so we can keep it stored in its box for another couple of months until baby comes.

Looking forward to: Finally resolving the baby room situation and my husband not being totally annoying about it all. I guess when the baby furniture all arrives in a few weeks and he realises there is no where to put it then he might do something. Enough said.

Best moment of the week: There have not been a lot of highlights this week, but I do have a funny story! On Thursday evening I was hot and tired when I came home from work so I took all my clothes off except for my knickers and I had a little rest on the bed in the spare room. I was lying on my side on the bed, obviously without a bra or top on, and my littlest kitty came to say hello. She spotted my nipples, which are now dark brown saucers rather than the petite little things they used to be, and thought she’d give them a little pat with her paw like she would a toy. It was so funny and surprising, if a little unexpected. I laughed and laughed!

Also, I saw Beyonce wearing one of the maternity t-shirts I own this week and it’s about as close to Beyonce that I will ever be! Hahaha!

Exercise: This week walking was the focus, with only one session of yoga. I could have gone for the second yoga session on Friday but I was too miserable and tired to be bothered. I did go for a walk instead so I wasn’t a complete lazy bum.

Bump update: The bump is now starting to get a LOT of attention. It’s gotten to the point where people have started to touch it without permission. Not many people do this – perhaps I give effective F-off vibes – but we went to see our architects designing our house yesterday and one of them (a woman) went for the belly touch. I don’t know if I gave her a look of death, but I probably did because I know what I was thinking in my head and it was not friendly! She did back off quickly so hopefully she got the message. She then started quizzing me about the usual stuff (is it a boy or girl, when is he due, how are you feeling) and I kept giving very short answers so that was the end of that. I am delighted to talk about my pregnancy to people who I know well, but this woman gets on my nerves so I think I went into full defensive mode. The house looks good though so that’s something.

I’m also confused by how the size of my bump rates as some people, such as my father-in-law, keep telling me it’s huge (thanks very much) and others (usually women) telling me it’s compact and neat. I have decided that men just have NO IDEA and should not offer any opinion on the matter!

The kitties have joined the photo shoot again this week as they seem to be more popular than my bump photos are!

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Week 27 – Bumping along

This week has been relatively unremarkable pregnancy-wise. I think it was a good growing week though as I can really see and feel the bump getting bigger and bigger, sometimes it seems by the second! What has characterised this week though is how incredibly busy I have been at work – probably the most busy I’ve been throughout this entire pregnancy. It was the kind of work week where I actually needed to be doing five things simultaneously in order to get them done in the time required, which of course is not possible but is even less possible when you have a pregnant brain that can only barely focus properly on one task at a time. I found myself talking allowed several times a day saying, “What am I doing?” This is not great considering I am a Director at my company so should know what I am actually doing?!

The summary is I have been leaving work quite late and when I have managed to escape I’ve been quite drained. Nothing serious or anything, but there wasn’t much room for anything else in my world this week other than work, eat, sleep. I am so massively grateful that it’s a long weekend here with Monday off as I really feel I need an extended break more than ever.

In fact, hubby and I have had a pretty relaxed day so far with some chores in the morning and I have not long woken up after a two hour afternoon nap. Honestly, I don’t think there’s anything better in this world than an afternoon nap.

The Mediterranean summer has kicked in properly this week with most days hitting the 30 degree mark (high 80s F) and, although next week looks a couple of degrees lower, I think this is how it’s going to be until around October. I do love the long summers here, but that was when I had a body that was not carrying around a human masquerading as an internal heating device. I think I feel the weather is an average of 5 degrees hotter than it really is when pregnant. I am so, so grateful this baby is not coming in August or September as I can’t imaging what kind of hell 40+ degree whether would be when heavily pregnant!

Weight gain: It’s been a big weight gain week for me, which supports my theory about this baby being on a growth spurt. One of the interesting things I’ve found about pregnancy is how the growth pattern of the baby/bump is not linear. It really does spike! So you can go a few days or a week or so and feel like not much growing is happening, then one day you look down and it’s like WHOA where did that come from? I’ve had that kind of week. No matter which way I spin it now, I’ve definitely gained 10kg (22 pounds). The thing that comforts me is that I think I look okay with the extra baby weight. Obviously the truth will be in how it comes off afterwards and what the next few weeks bring, but so far so good.

Symptoms: Until yesterday I would have considered this week a pretty low-symptom week. No leg cramps, no round ligament pain and everything going pretty smoothly. That was until yesterday at work where I had a huge dizzy session where I thought it was quite possible I might puke or pass out or both. I had this feeling right in the middle of a meeting with the other girl who is pregnant at my work (the one who is 1 week behind me and has a much bigger bump). It was probably the best person to do this in front of as actually she quickly switched on the AC in the office and fetched me a Fanta (disgusting of course, but full of sugar). I don’t know exactly what caused my dizzy spell, perhaps it was low blood sugar or overheating or being overtired or all of those things combined. In any case, after a few minutes of resting and a glass of nasty Fanta I was pretty ok. What it of course was is a reminder that I have to take better care of myself and this baby and stop dismissing pregnancy as not affecting me. This I have been guilty of throughout as though I don’t want to be seen as weak or at all impacted by carrying a baby. Amateur psychologists make of that whatever you like.

Eating: I don’t think anything remarkable happened food wise this week. One thing I have suddenly become obsessed with this week is ice lollies/popsicles/icy-poles (delete as appropriate as these are all the same thing but they go by different names in different countries). To be clear, it is not ice-CREAM that I am obsessed by but the juicy-icy ones that are made of fruit juice or something claiming to have some kind of fruit juice base. I think this is because the weather got warmer all of a sudden, but they are my guilty pleasure. I’m planning to make my own ones this weekend with fresh orange juice (that I squeeze myself), raspberries (frozen probably) and coconut water. This is entirely a recipe I’ve dreamed up myself so let’s see how it goes. If it’s any good I’ll make a recipe and post it here.

Sleep: My sleep has been pretty okay as far as my sleep goes this week. I went for a pregnancy massage on Wednesday night and it was a special kind of amazing. I think the fact I was so drained from work made me a great candidate for massage. I enjoyed it so much I drifted off for a time and woke myself up by a kind of snuffle-snore thing which must have been a beautiful sight to witness. However, not only did I feel physically better afterwards, but it had the effect that I could not have cared less about my work for the remainder of that night. And I slept wonderfully. If you’re thinking about going for a maternity massage but you’re on the fence, well go for it and I expect you’ll thank me later!

Movement: Yes, baby is quite acrobatic these days. I often see him doing all kinds of moves making my belly jut out a bit, especially after dinner. He’s most active in the afternoon/evening and after sweet, cold things. He went absolutely crazy during the massage and the lady giving it to me said it’s because more blood is pushed to the uterus so he’s kind of on a blood high. That’s cool.

Emotions: I was too busy at work to be emotional this week I think. I was listening to music on the car on the way to work yesterday morning and Kelly Clarkson’s song Piece by Piece came on. I’d never heard it before and found myself listening deeply to the lyrics. By the time it finished I was in tears and had to have a quiet word to myself before I went into the office.

Missing: Not much really. If pushed, I have to say wine. I had an after work drinks meeting on Tuesday night at a wine bar. I think I might have made sad puppy dog eyes at other people’s glasses of wine. One of the girls who joined the drinks – and who is new to our company – asked me how religiously I’m sticking to the no-alcohol rule. I said it was completely strict – no alcohol at all for me – and she seemed a bit surprised (not in a bad way). I explained that it has taken me a lot of effort to get to be pregnant (and stay that way, although I didn’t offer that up) and so I didn’t see the point in compromising the baby for something that I could do without. She then went on to tell me a story about a former boss of hers who used to go out and have two mohito cocktails a night when pregnant. I generally try and stay out of other people’s business when it comes to pregnancy and baby-rearing but I think my aghast face said it all when she told this story.

Purchases: I didn’t buy anything this week! This is some kind of record for me and really does show you how busy I have been. The new dresses I ordered last week arrived though and I love them. They are both from Seraphine. Seriously, I love that shop! I did get a phone call though that the Bugaboo has arrived! Yay! We could have picked it up today but couldn’t really be bothered (lazy) so I’ll do so next week instead. It’s going to sit in a box for a couple more months anyway so no rush to collect it.

Looking forward to: Actually starting work on the baby room! We have chosen the theme and we have a plan, now we just need to execute it. What will become the baby room is the room I take my bumpie selfie photos in. Until now it has been a guest bedroom and the only room in our 3 bedroom apartment I have had complete freedom to decorate and furnish however I like. It will be sad in a way to lose my special room, but I am very happy it’s because there is a baby on the way.

Anyway, the plan is to take out the guest bed, repaint the room and then get some wallpaper on one wall as a feature. This all has to happen before the first week of June when the baby’s cot bed and drawers/change table arrive. We are still yet to choose a rug for the room and a chair for nursing, although they can come later and it won’t matter.

I am also delighted that next week will be a three day work week for me. Monday is a public holiday and I will be taking Friday as annual leave as I have two appointments on Friday during work hours. Appointment one is a meeting with our architects who are designing our new house and will be showing us the final 3D designs. The house probably won’t be finished for another two years which is why we are putting some effort into the baby room in the apartment (not too much effort though). Appointment two is a breast-feeding seminar at my clinic. I’m not really sure what that’s going to involve but it’s run by a former midwife who I have become friendly with so I am sure it will be both educational and fun.

Best moment of the week: The massage. Easily the massage.

Exercise: It will come as no surprise that my exercise count this week has been much lower than usual. I would normally be cross at myself for this, but I know I’ve been stretched this week and so it is what it is. Next week will be better.

Bump update: Here is the bump looking even more bumpalicious than ever before. I’m starting to wonder how gigantic I’m going to be towards the end!

 

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Kitty photobombing again this week!

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