Hello my new friend, heartburn! From all reports heartburn is a very common pregnancy symptom but it is a new one for me and I am a little excited about it. What a weird thing to be excited about, you might think, but given the previous failed pregnancies had very little normal symptoms I like to think that this is a good sign that things are progressing well.
I think I am feeling a bit nauseous too, but definitely not even close to puking. The way I feel a bit like I’ve been a passenger in a car on a winding road with a very bad driver. Except I’ve not been near a car or a winding road and a dry Italian breadstick makes it pass pretty quickly. However, feeling sick is a good sign for me as I associate it with a healthy pregnancy (weird, I know).
Even though I was really pleased about my scan last Friday, such is the way the mind works, by Saturday I was already in a full spin about all of the things that could go wrong. Saturday night I practically didn’t sleep as I was up all night going through all the different horror of horrors that could befall us. Great.
Since then both hubby and a good friend have given me a bit of a talking to about how everything is as good as it can be at this stage and just because bad things happened previously doesn’t mean they will again. Reasons to be positive:
- This is a new embryo from a fresh, potentially stronger batch
- I am better prepared physically and mentally this time than the previous two times
- I am taking all the necessary medical precautions as follows reproductive immunology, which I wasn’t the previous two times
- The embaby measured normal as of Friday (and much better at the same stage than pregnancy 2, pregnancy 1 I wasn’t informed of such data and didn’t know to ask for it)
- The embaby has a heartbeat which is very positive
- Third time lucky
Already I am desperate for next Monday to come around so we can do the next scan. Next week is the mega-danger period for us as this has been the period of previous pregnancies when things have been shown to take a turn for the worst and it is a huge marker in the sand for us. I really do feel like I am treading water at the moment until I can get through this stage. Until then, pass me a breadstick please!